First Blog! woop

So I'm deciding to start a blog because I often have thoughts and feelings that I just need to express, whether it be in conversation, writing, music.. whatever it may be.  As many of you know, I am going through one of the toughest times of my life right now.  I lost my absolute best friend, Ashton, in a car accident on April 2.  I've had my ups and downs dealing and coping with this, but here lately its been a downhill landslide.  Its summertime, the time when we should all be together- laying out by the pool, going out and having fun, having "sleep overs".. just being together and enjoying our times together.  So I've really been struggling with that.. feeling very alone without her.  This week was real hard on me.  I made some poor decisions that landed me in bad places.  But now I'm getting help and getting better. I'm beginning to accept the fact that I'm NEVER alone and she is ALWAYS with me.  I just really miss her. 
But anyway, Now I'm getting ready for the Performing Arts show on Monday and Tuesday.  This will be my 16th show.  Although this year I'm only in one number.. unlike other years when I was in like 10.  But I enjoy being around the studio and teaching.  I'll be singing "To Make You Feel My Love."- originally by Bob Dylan but now Adelle does a great version of it.  Its a strong song.. means alot to me. 
Anyway, I'm heading back to the studio now to practice.  Then maybe Osaka for dinner.. nom nom nom. I'm basically on house arrest other than like Osaka and the studio.. so I hope some friends come see me tonight.

Love to all my friends and family!
Liz.